Blog night

Tonight felt like a blog kind of night, so I might as well blog. I'm feeling it tonight so yeeeeeeah buddy. Uhh, shall we talk about feelings? I guess we might as well. As of right now, I'm feeling better than I was these past couple of weeks. I still don't like my relationships with this person, but you know, what can I do if I can't talk to that person. I'll just wait for that day that we can talk and I'll try to make everything better. I don't know why, precisely, but I feel obligated to try and make this work. I'd like it for this to work out, cuz as a person, I love that other person. Close friends are hard to come by and that person is most definitely a close friend. I'd do anything for anyone, but especially that close friend. Plus, I didn't like being ignored/avoided. That just hurt...

On another note, I am finding this other person pretty attractive. LOL she's actually pretty cute and all I can hope is that our paths will cross more and more. This way, things will be natural and not forced and not burnt at all. This is like the upside to all of my despair and sadness. No one notices, but I mean, I don't let people notice these things. It's not like me to let other people worry about me, I don't like it when other people worry about me. I can take care of myself AND other people. But it'd be nice to have a person to just look at me and know wholeheartedly, without a doubt, that something's wrong and fix it right then and there and take care of me without me knowing, or realizing it. That's what I would LOVE to happen. Some people are good at realizing something's wrong, and other people are good at cheering me up and taking care of me. It's amazing, but I need that one person package. Not need, want cuz I'm satisfied with what I have right now.

As for prom, it stung a bit, in the beginning but I'm back on my feet with a plan. I am focused and determined to make this thing work out. I need a good moment and maybe prom will be the source of that good moment. It's all or nothing at this point, and I'm playing to win. I'm a corny mother fucker, but I like it... :] I hope everything works out...I really do.

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--Nweezyfbaby