Selfless vs Selfish

So Tet is coming up and I'm pretty excited. Except for the fact that our dragon dancing group is a bit smaller this year, it's okay. We can take this as a learning opportunity and create a chance for us to adapt. Although this year we are smaller, we got booked to big places. We are dancing at the Morongo! How exciting! This year is going to be a big year for us, I can tell. I feel it, but I also feel bad because I have been skipping out on practice. What kind of role model can I be to the newbies if I keep ditching practice. I have a feeling that they don't like me very much. I'm not there often and I will yell at them if they mess up. Maybe I need to be nicer and try to encourage instead of telling them what they did wrong in a mean way. But they already have that kind of figure on the team, so maybe I should be the discipline. Well whatever it is, I know that this gig is going to be a lot of $$$.

Which brings me to my topic of the day. Chinese New Years, or Tet, is my only source of income for the whole year, besides the food money I get from my parents when I go out. My Tet money is the money I get to spend on my own. But 90% of all my Tet money goes to gifts and presents to my friends for their birthdays and Christmas. I barely get any for myself, but it's okay. All the things I want are totally superficial and is not worth my time. My friends' happiness is all that matters to me. I have a grip of close friends so I have to fulfill my duty and give them what they want. Whatever I want, I can find on sale because I am Vietnamese. Vietnamese people always find the best deals in the world and I am of no exception to that wonderful stereotype. Every time I go shopping with people, we always find the best deals on the most random pieces of fun.

But I would be lying if I said I didn't want more things. I feel bad if I don't give my friends gifts for their special day though. This is quite a dilemma for me: whose happiness do I put forth? Mine or my friends. I know the answer to that already. My friends. I don't think people understand how much love I have for other people. They think they know, but they really have no clue. If we were in a dangerous situation, I make sure I would take care of EVERYONE and if that means killing myself for their food, I'd do it. Maybe that's a bit too far LOL but that's the only way I can explain it. HAHAHA that's creepy.....

What's even more creepy is that I laugh to myself when I blog...

'Til next time
-nweezyf