If there's one thing I have to do, it's a shout out to all my friends that helped me and make me feel good no matter what.
Brandon: You're like my brother man. We've been through so much together from roaming the streets of Chinatown to just bummin' it around Torrance. There's nothing you wouldn't do for me and me for you. You're my battle buddy, my best buddy, a true buddy.
Mimi: Not enough words can describe how god you make me feel. You're always so positive around me and that influences me to be more positive. You try to help whenever you can and I appreciate that a lot. No one can replace you, not ever. bfffth,b <3
Jane: I feel you reject my love a lot, but I truly do love you Jane Park. I admire you and how you tackle your problems in life, whether it be school or your own personal life. You influence me and how I choose my actions. You're always entertaining to talk to because you have so much to say for such a little person. Like I said, you're organized, you're diligent, and you have your priorities all in order. You're one of the people I aspire to be like, Jane.
The Group: I can count on y'all to help me brighten my day. Each and every one of you are unique and special and bring something to the group that only makes us bond closer together. I'm grateful that I got to spend 4 years in high school with you guys. Without you guys, I wouldn't be the person I am today, whatever that means :P I love y'all.
These are just a few of the great friends I have. I'm afraid I can't write for you all because I don't have enough time, but I want you guys to know that I love you guys too and you aren't forgotten.
Happy New Years everyone!
keep checking
--nweezy
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
update
Things are going smoothly in life right now. All I gotta do right now is just fix up those things that I screwed up on. I think I need to show my friends how much I really care for them. Yeah, I think that's what I need to do to make my life that much better.
I'm over her. Been over. People been asking "Oh how do you feel about......." but to be honest, I don't care. Lol iono, it's just weird. All this time, I been wanting to get her attention but realized that it's just not worth it. I think I needed that third party intervention to get me off this path that I'm on. Honestly, I'm grateful for it. I can be carefree and do what I want to do. I'm not worrying and stressing over unnecessary things anymore, it's just me and my free mind.
A new personal goal for me: get stronger, get more cut, and find someone new. I know I said I wouldn't try, but I can look, can't I? :P This year, senior year, should be the year I cross everything off my to-do list. Getting things done and being efficient. That's what I want to do.
I'll update soon again. Keep posted.
--nweezy
I'm over her. Been over. People been asking "Oh how do you feel about......." but to be honest, I don't care. Lol iono, it's just weird. All this time, I been wanting to get her attention but realized that it's just not worth it. I think I needed that third party intervention to get me off this path that I'm on. Honestly, I'm grateful for it. I can be carefree and do what I want to do. I'm not worrying and stressing over unnecessary things anymore, it's just me and my free mind.
A new personal goal for me: get stronger, get more cut, and find someone new. I know I said I wouldn't try, but I can look, can't I? :P This year, senior year, should be the year I cross everything off my to-do list. Getting things done and being efficient. That's what I want to do.
I'll update soon again. Keep posted.
--nweezy
Thursday, August 13, 2009
nweezy talks
hey yo it's your boi nweezyfbaby niggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
LOL
imagine if i really talked like that
hahahahaha i'd kill myself. i'm fine if i talk just a bit like that, but i really wouldn't like it if i talked like that ever single day 24/7.
hmm since this has been my 4th entry, i can say i'm off all that dark shit
i've realized that i'm gonna give up on girls. girls are retarded; they don't know what's good for them. they always wanna go for the guy that's unreachable when the guy (who's just as good) is in their faces. they're always chasing guys who'll screw them over and fuck up and treat them wrongly. whatever, this year's just gonna be all me and the homies. just me and my friends, i'm not gonna over-exert myself for someone who won't appreciate the effort. i'm good.
on another note, let's talk music
i really really really really really really really really love rap. like no joke, when i'm by myself, i turn on my mp3 player (I REALLY WANT AN ITOUCH) and put that thing on loud and just blast my rap music. i mean there are days when i feel mellow, so i listen to jack johnson, taylor swift, etc. nawmeen, but i like rap. like i can't imagine being crazy about rock, even though some of it ain't bad, but i can't. i need that heavy bass and the slick flow and the creative lines that makes my mind go WOW, this fool's nuts.. rock doesn't do that. also, there are my techno days, where i just want to head bang all day
LOL
but yeah, nawmeen if i didn't have my rap, i would be like -.- all day. fuuuuck i'm addicted.
but yeah, as i said before, my shit's like gold. it's worth a lot AND it's meaningful.
whoever reads this, keep posted because i'll update this sooner. ya digg?
-nweezyfbaby
LOL
imagine if i really talked like that
hahahahaha i'd kill myself. i'm fine if i talk just a bit like that, but i really wouldn't like it if i talked like that ever single day 24/7.
hmm since this has been my 4th entry, i can say i'm off all that dark shit
i've realized that i'm gonna give up on girls. girls are retarded; they don't know what's good for them. they always wanna go for the guy that's unreachable when the guy (who's just as good) is in their faces. they're always chasing guys who'll screw them over and fuck up and treat them wrongly. whatever, this year's just gonna be all me and the homies. just me and my friends, i'm not gonna over-exert myself for someone who won't appreciate the effort. i'm good.
on another note, let's talk music
i really really really really really really really really love rap. like no joke, when i'm by myself, i turn on my mp3 player (I REALLY WANT AN ITOUCH) and put that thing on loud and just blast my rap music. i mean there are days when i feel mellow, so i listen to jack johnson, taylor swift, etc. nawmeen, but i like rap. like i can't imagine being crazy about rock, even though some of it ain't bad, but i can't. i need that heavy bass and the slick flow and the creative lines that makes my mind go WOW, this fool's nuts.. rock doesn't do that. also, there are my techno days, where i just want to head bang all day
LOL
but yeah, nawmeen if i didn't have my rap, i would be like -.- all day. fuuuuck i'm addicted.
but yeah, as i said before, my shit's like gold. it's worth a lot AND it's meaningful.
whoever reads this, keep posted because i'll update this sooner. ya digg?
-nweezyfbaby
Friday, January 9, 2009
Nuclear bomb on Nweezy
like the title says, a bomb dropped on me
dunno how bad the damage is, but from the looks of it, it's not so bad
i mean, i can still function and do my day-to-day needs
but fuck, there's still that part of me where it feels like i failed--miserably
like i tried my hardest, but my hardest wasn't good enough
also, i don't want to hold anyone back. if i am, i'm gonna have to change for that person, no matter how much i don't want to. it's crazy, but that's who i am. my friends first and me after. people can call me unselfish and a good person and all that nice shit, but i know who the fuck i am
i'm fucking kevin nguyen and those are just my morals and values. they're what i believe in and you don't have to congratulate me just because i have good morals. honestly, i'm kind of sick of being the nice guy, because they never get shit. and when i tried to do shit, i went too far and too fast and i end up getting nothing either. what i wish for now is to have everything go back to the way it was before the bomb. i wish i had never said anything because i knew it wouldn't have worked out in the end. but like everyone, i was a fool and i experimented. but i can't say that i didn't enjoy it. truth be told, i loved it. i loved every second of it. i loved every feeling of it, but i can do without the pain haha. i loved the thrill, the chase, the hunt, and the attack. it made me feel more alive than i ever had before, in my 17 years of living. so in all actuality, i'm pretty glad i took this chance. but it still pains me to think that i'm holding the one person i care about the most back. and in order for that person to advance as a human being, i have to change my feelings. i'm good with that, because in return i get my friend back. no mater how bad i want it, i don't think it's ever going to come. but now here comes the important question: what happens when i've finally moved on and i'm the one that gets chased. what'll i do then? will i go back to the way i was, or would i brush it off and look forward? i believe that everything happens for a reason, but a special part in my heart is reserved and will always be reserved for that person. i don't even know why i fell so hard, shit. i thought i knew, but thinking back it's really ridankulous. as of now, i'm fine but i'm constantly thinking about that night. i'm willing to do anything for that person, even if it means to shun that person from my life forever. but luckily i don't have to because we homies for life. no joke. i don't know why, but without going into relationships, i might be feeling love for this person. haha it's kinda far-fetched but no joke, it feels like that. if i think about it, i could imagine us together in 10 years, but i'll never admit it haha. all i'm curious now is that what's gonna happen
keep checking back because i'll keep you posted
even though my readers will probably be just me hahaha
it's just a good way to get shit off my chest because i can't find another person like me to talk to
-nweezyf
dunno how bad the damage is, but from the looks of it, it's not so bad
i mean, i can still function and do my day-to-day needs
but fuck, there's still that part of me where it feels like i failed--miserably
like i tried my hardest, but my hardest wasn't good enough
also, i don't want to hold anyone back. if i am, i'm gonna have to change for that person, no matter how much i don't want to. it's crazy, but that's who i am. my friends first and me after. people can call me unselfish and a good person and all that nice shit, but i know who the fuck i am
i'm fucking kevin nguyen and those are just my morals and values. they're what i believe in and you don't have to congratulate me just because i have good morals. honestly, i'm kind of sick of being the nice guy, because they never get shit. and when i tried to do shit, i went too far and too fast and i end up getting nothing either. what i wish for now is to have everything go back to the way it was before the bomb. i wish i had never said anything because i knew it wouldn't have worked out in the end. but like everyone, i was a fool and i experimented. but i can't say that i didn't enjoy it. truth be told, i loved it. i loved every second of it. i loved every feeling of it, but i can do without the pain haha. i loved the thrill, the chase, the hunt, and the attack. it made me feel more alive than i ever had before, in my 17 years of living. so in all actuality, i'm pretty glad i took this chance. but it still pains me to think that i'm holding the one person i care about the most back. and in order for that person to advance as a human being, i have to change my feelings. i'm good with that, because in return i get my friend back. no mater how bad i want it, i don't think it's ever going to come. but now here comes the important question: what happens when i've finally moved on and i'm the one that gets chased. what'll i do then? will i go back to the way i was, or would i brush it off and look forward? i believe that everything happens for a reason, but a special part in my heart is reserved and will always be reserved for that person. i don't even know why i fell so hard, shit. i thought i knew, but thinking back it's really ridankulous. as of now, i'm fine but i'm constantly thinking about that night. i'm willing to do anything for that person, even if it means to shun that person from my life forever. but luckily i don't have to because we homies for life. no joke. i don't know why, but without going into relationships, i might be feeling love for this person. haha it's kinda far-fetched but no joke, it feels like that. if i think about it, i could imagine us together in 10 years, but i'll never admit it haha. all i'm curious now is that what's gonna happen
keep checking back because i'll keep you posted
even though my readers will probably be just me hahaha
it's just a good way to get shit off my chest because i can't find another person like me to talk to
-nweezyf
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